Saturday, December 23, 2006

Bigger And Better At Being Worse

Oh, don't be sarcastic
Please I'm asking you
Because you're making a complete mess of it
I should let you know, we're playing on a level plain
'Cause now I match you pound for pound in substance, style
And cynicism
You just like him so much don't you?
The blond pretty boy, I could make him look blue
And I would, just for to hurt you
But he can't help who he is
A pretty looking boy with a pretty empty head
And a laugh that sounds like something's about to be dead
He's just a cardboard prop to me
I could break him, just to hurt you
As you can tell, I'm not your old polite little yes-boy
Your executive toy
Your wind up, throw away action figure
Now I'm a little bit older
A little bit colder
And a little less naive
You can't control me anymore
I'm not chaining myself to anyone anymore
I've come back from the grave you put me in
And I have something to tell you
And it isn't going to be pretty
Ah, for Christmas Eve
It sure is chilly

Hide Within My Rock

Don't yell at me for who I am
That's wrong, but don't expect to find out from me what's right
I only know that if I still talked to you
I'd still be crying every night
And if you never love you never cry
And never have to watch her die
Broken in your arms
So that's why I have my walls
My caller i.d. and deadbolts
So I never have to love, or cry, or wonder why?
Why?
It's a paradise, I tell myself
And after all
I have my poetry and books to protect me from outside thoughts
And my music to talk to and guide me
I never will see you again
We'll never be anything, not even friends
So don't talk to me again
My perfect life has no room for lovers, or friends

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Nobody Likes "Maybe" Backed Into A Corner

We don't care about who we are
(simply because we can't be who we want to)
You're my best, closestest friend (in my head)
But in real life you're almost as far away as dead
(how happy we are in my head!)
When you feel blue like me (the sea)
Everything rhymes with death
And you can't cry, cause the tears won't come
The human race has already used up its allowance of salt water
Poor me/poor you/poor we
Light you on fire in effigy, leave me be
Leave me the person I want to be
The one you kicked off the hayride
You're my best mistake for ruining my life
You could ruin my life (because you're so pretty)
Keep quiet, I've kept quiet, like little boy blue
You like him don't you?
You loose the color blue from underneath the rock
It was buried under
Christ
You're great
Working for us sinful little people
But I light matches in the wintertime, just to keep my head on
And the snow outside, where I belong
And why does "flowers" rhyme with death?
And why do I hear your voice every night when I try to sleep
You'd weep, like I can't, oh wait, I'm a tragic poet, I forgot
Can I lie like I'm happy with you to the world?
Because you're the last locked door between me and you
Douse the wick in kerosene
Lit like a candle
Douse the wicked kerosene
It's all that's keeping me rambling on
Don't say that poets can't dream
I've dreamed up more than life could ever create
Thank God for imagination
Thank evolution for opposable thumbs
Thank me for not shouting it all out on a rooftop
Because then the world would never let us be
But it never leaves alone
Such farsighted, insighted, uprighted boys like me
I look so good in shades of blue
So do you

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

On Politics, or, You #$%3ing %#$^ $#$%%$^!

Ah, politics. Something that deeply divides the nation. And all nations. And the world. Why is this, you may ask? Well, I might have found the answer. People are thick headed jerks. I know some perfectly nice people, who, if politics is talked about around them, will immediatly turn into the most venomous, disgusting show of intolerance. They refuse to behave civilized about it. If you're going to be a jerk, don't talk about it. Sounds easy, right? Ha ha ha. Not so. Usually, the worse a person is, the more he or she will be attracted to it! But here's a good rule of thumb for gauging people's political hatred level. If they start talking about politics without anyone bringing it up, and their talking about it is very snooty and down-putting to their opposition, quickly tie him or her down, gag the person, and run away as fast as you can. Nothing good can come from these people. The problem with politics is that the majority of people do not realize that the people with whom they differ in politics have legit reasons for their views. Different reason than you have, correct, but legit all the same. Because they don't get this, Democrats are accepting and tolerant of everyone except those who have even a vaguely conservative attitude, and Republicans see themselves as protectors of all that is Good, American, and Holy. If you never hear me talking serious politics to anyone, don't be surprised. I don't want to force anyone to publicly declare themselves an ass. So, just remember that. The person on the other side of the table isn't Satan. He or she is someone just like you, only a different shade of red or blue.

Monday, December 18, 2006

The Ageala Mahor Conflicts, part 1.

The surface of Ageala Mahor shines and wavers through the outer layer of the atmosphere, like the air in a desert. On the surface, though, it's cool and wet, for the rainy season has just departed. And in opinion of Private Herring, Amphibious Ambush Troop, it's just a sight too cool for his liking. "Sir, permission to speak?" The request was answered by a gruff "Permission granted" from Sergeant Maliffso, Amphibious Ambush and Assault Extraordinaire. "Sir," said Private Herring, "isn't it going to be great when the weather control station's up?" The cold stare he got in reply said, very clearly, no, it will not be great. "Keep your eyes on the water private; the last report said the sklinterrs are coming this way." They were on the edge of a rocky cliff, the abrupt end to the ground. Below the cliff was the clear blue Agealian sea, and somewhere in there was a group of sklinterrs, surging through the water, their sole aim being to attack the nearby United Base. Sklinterrs are one of the strangest death machines; they are individually two foot long sharp metal splinters, yet they can bind together to form shapes for traveling. In water they form a vaguely dolphin-like shape, and on land they can create a flowing snake. When they reach their target, they split apart, and fly through the air, spinning wildly. While doing this, they can shred nearly any material apart. And this is why Private Herring and Sergeant Maliffso were stationed on the edge of a sea cliff, with an amphibious missile launcher for each of them.
As they waited, Sergeant Maliffso watched Private Herring; "The boy could be good," he thought to himself, "but he seems to be rather easily distracted. I wonder how he'll cope with his first battle." They stood quietly, then Private Herring sunk to his knees. "Private?" Sergeant Maliffso asked. "Praying sir; I had a sudden resurgence of Sunday school memories." "I see. Well I would- Get up Private, they're here." Two large dolphins had swam into view. Or at least, they were shaped similar to dolphins. The machines were about three times larger than the average dolphin, and made of a shiny platinum-looking metal. "Get ready to fire, Private, but don't alert them to our presence." "Siryessir. Preparing to- oops." The missile cartridge slipped out of the Private's hands, and crashed upon the rocks below. The air briefly turned yellow around where the cartridge hit, then went back to normal. "Wonderful, Private, just wonder-" before he could finish his sentence, several sklinterrs detached from one of the groups, and launched themselves out of the water towards the Sergeant's head. He dispatched them with a missile, and began to reload. But before he could fire more than one or two missiles, the sklinterrs had already reached the cliff, and were flowing up in rivers of liquid steel. "Damn, we can't hit them from here; the angle we're at will just ensure we miss if we fire. Come on Private, it's time to retreat back to base. Run!" They took off into the forest, running for their lives. "Drop your weapons Private, they'll just slow you down!" "Yessir!" They let their weapons drop to the ground, just as they heard the whirring that meant the machines had gotten up the cliff and were already ripping apart the vegetation.
After only thirty seconds or, an explosion ripped out as the sklinterrs hit the guns; a high pitched scream went up, and then they got angry. They split apart, and spread through the jungle indiscriminately shredding whatever moved. "Get into a tree Herring, we'll be able to hide from them that way!" "Yessir!" The Sergeant swiftly clambered up a tree, but as the Private grabbed onto a branch, it snapped and he tumbled to the ground. He got up and made a leap for another branch. He never got there. A sklinterr came out of the undergrowth and drilled through his chest, killing him instantly. The sklinterrs came back together, and flowed on as the snake form toward the United Base. The Sergeant marked the place where the Private had fallen, and came down from the tree. He started running off to base, taking a circuitous route to avoid running into his previous pursuers. "Sorry kid... Bad luck." He thought to himself as ran, "But I'll be back for you. Though what needs to be done now is save the Settlement; your corpse can come later."

Saturday, December 16, 2006

You've Been Here Too Long

Don't forget what you came here for
Just to walk through that open door
You're just lingering here
In a world that isn't real
At least, not for you
This is my own world, why won't you leave?
For you it's just a passage to somewhere else
Or should be
Why won't you leave?
You're the only thing I can't erase
I just keep telling to you're gone
But you've been here all along

Thursday, December 14, 2006

A Love Story

The house was lit up, all the windows letting out light and the joyful celebration contained inside shown to all the world. The house had been keeping all the heat and happiness bottled up inside, except for a few snowballers with a lust for the icy cold feeling you get when a snowball hits you square in the back of the neck and drips down your back, but they had all gone inside a long time ago. Presently a car came up the hill, its tires slipping a bit here and there, but making it despite the adverse conditions for driving. The car pulled into the already over filled driveway, and a young man got out. His face looked about twenty or so, but it had that curious, utterly contented look that usually only comes to a person after a lifetime of joyful marriage. The man and that curious face made their way up the steps to the house, and quietly inserted themselves into that festive gathering.

Hanging up his coat on one of the already overfilled pegs in the hallway, he walked into living room. He was greeted by surprised and happy exclamations, and he returned them with merry hellos and how are yous. He wandered from room to room, inquiring, Have you seen a certain person? but no one had. Finally he came to a room at the back of the house. As soon as he opened up the door, a guilty silence came over the room. That feeling that comes when the witnesses to something suddenly realize they should have done their duty and intervened, but did nothing. Anyway, in the middle of the room were a young man and woman, kissing fiercely underneath the mistletoe. The intruder stepped forward and said, "I made it! And I see you've met a new friend." She quickly pushed her mistletoe lover away and responded, "Oh, um, I can't believe you got in! I thought your flight was canceled?" "I did too, but they decided to try it. Can I talk to you?" She left the other man underneath the mistletoe, and followed her fiance out of the room. They walked to the front hall and collected their coats, and made their way outside.

They started walking aimlessly, in no particular direction, but eventually, they found their way to a line of pine trees, cut off from view of the house. Tired, she sat down on the garden bench underneath one of the trees, while he remained standing. She watched his back as he watched the stars, then let her eyes drop as he began to speak.

"You should know, I still love you. I don't care what reason you had for kissing him; if you had one and what it was are nothing to me. I love you, and that's all that matters. Love connects you to someone in a way that is so deep, so strong, there is no way we can even comprehend it. If we were to die right now, and you were sent to Heaven, and I was sent to punishment in Hell, my voice would ring out across that great void between the two realms, and I would be happy, knowing, even as I burn, that you can hear my voice and I can still speak to you and tell you I love you. Love. I would give everything I can for our love. If I had all the power in God's universe, and could smite all life or make all the suns go out at once with a blink of my eye, I would do it without a thought for the consquences if you wished me to. I would undergo more pain than my physical body can bear; I could not be happy without you, even in paradise. What does it matter to me if you kiss one man; what does it matter if you make love to a thousand? I Love you, I've welded our souls together, and if you stray or if you stay by my side, it will change nothing between us. I know what it is like to be God, for my love for you closes in upon the Love He has for all His people. I Love you."

She replied, "I must have had too much eggnog; anyway, just before you came into the room, it was he who came up as I was walking under the mistletoe and kissed me." She began to cry, and he moved with infinite care and tenderness to comfort her.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Smile, Princess Suzy

Oh, just smile/I want you to smile, princess Suzy/The lords and ladies are anxiously waiting/Oh smile lovely Suzy/Shower the kingdom in sunshine and roses/Smile, princess Suzy

Oh happy lovely Suzy/She's the Queen's little girl(God save the Queen!)/Dear precious Suzy/She's the King's whole world(God save the King!)/The hopeful princes gather/From out of far off lands/They all come together/To kiss her dainty hands/God save Princess Suzy!

But the princess Suzy/Is sad and dismayed/Her pretty pet piggy was shot in a glade/He was roaming in the forest, and was mistaken for a boar/Shot in the side, never to grunt no more/Smile princess Suzy, though thee be sad/And your pretty face/Shall make the world glad

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Smile On Ice

Whenever I see your smiling face/I have to smile myself/Because I love you, yes I do/But at the very moment when I smile at you/You turn my whole world blue/'Cause you're ice/You're cold/You're the one I want to hold/But if I do, I might freeze on you/And never
be able to let go

You're so beautiful/The world should obey whatever you say/But it won't, because nature doesn't work that way/But you can still freeze it, that's true/'Cause every time I look at you/My breath stings in my lungs/My heart skips a beat/My skin grows cold/But I'll never grow old/Because in those moments/I can feel time slowing down/The cold of your smile stops God's clock going round/The world stops for a moment/Then jumps back with a start/I can't take all this shuddering/It's making me come apart

Friday, December 01, 2006

Nothing Like You

Nothing kills like you/And the frost of your smile/You freeze my heart, tear me apart/Which is strange considering you would give anything to live my life/Being a rock star isn't a glory/It's just the world's way of punishing good musicians/Having the reporters ooh, ah, and jump over themselves/To tell the world what you were wearing when you ate dinner/And you can't make them go away/All I want is to sing to you each day/But one bad rhyme and the critics shoot me down/You don't buy my cds, cause you just listened to them to be hip/It ends the same if it's my feet that slip or my tongue/I'll try something different, because I want you to be happy/And I'm the one who has it all/Who'll never fall/And you're the one/Who's day is done/And you want my life/And I want you/But the tabloids say, "these are never true"/And my sad smile kills like you

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

My Flame, My Burn

I smell like smoke/Every time you come round/You're burning me up/I can tell because through the fire and flames/I always see you/You're the one/Every time I burn/You're oil on the flames/And you won't let me go/Because you don't even know you're holding onto me

You're burning me up/You're so hot/The heat's making me blush/Red on my cheeks/On fire in my heart/Burning up me up inside/Making me fall apart/You don't think of yourself as fire/Maybe the sea in winter/But the sea's boiling/And I'm drowning in you/Fire fills my lungs and the air I breath/When you enter the room/And the firemen have all gone home for the day/I never thought I'd feel this way/But oh the heat/Oh the flames

Please oh please/Let it rain/Put out this burning love and pain/But every time you walk into the room/You only stoke the fire more/But when night comes/You'll save me from the cold/I can freeze or I can burn/What can I do?/I can freeze or I can burn/I can't help being drawn to your flame/Freeze or burn/Let the cold claim me/Or pitch into the flame/I'm gonna burn, for calling your name

Squirrels

It is a little known fact about me, but I love squirrels. They are like little personifications of Nature, small, energetic, clever and entirely unreadable. You can't see into their heads and figure out what they are thinking; you can only guess. Actually, they seem not to even think. Just as the wind and the waves of the sea are unthinking moving parts of Nature, squirrels dash about, but seem to have only the harmony of Nature behind them as a driving force. Interesting little tree rats. Although, if you look hard, you might be able to see the dragon inside them.

Monday, November 27, 2006

You're The End Of My Life

You're the end of my life
As I walk down life's path
I'm standing on a hill
And I can see the end of my life
It's far away, thank goodness
Yet closer than I might have expected
Heart disease, well
I've tried to eat healthy, but it looks like it didn't work out
But the grandkids are thick, crowding the hospital room
And those must be my children, thankfully they all have
Some of my physical traits
But who is that beside me?
Who is holding my hand?
You? It's you? But you...
I don't understand
We were friends from when I was little
But then it became something more
Only to slid away like sand
You were lost to me
You? How can it be you?
I'm happy, but I don't understand
I guess the only thing to do
Is wait and see
How it came to be
That you're the end of my life

Sunday, November 26, 2006

C.D.

I have some news. Most of my posts have been "lovesickyish" ones. Due to recent life changes, my focus has shifted off of these matters, and more to the goal of totally dominating life. I've vowed not to let love, hate or friendship drag me down. Why should you let love for a person grab you and smash you into the gutter? Love can ruin your life. And why should you let someone's hate of you push you down? You have no reason to just lie down; stand strong and don't fall. And I'm not willing to sacrifice my health, happiness and future for the sake of sinking down to share a friend's misery. Instead this is what I plan to do. I'm focusing on achieving the best life I can, and I'm not giving it up if the person I choose to get ensnared in love with is on a lower level of life. Instead, the only option is for me to help her up. If someone hates me; well, nuts to them. They can't bring me down, so it's like they don't even exist. And I won't go down for friends; I can only lift them up. My philosophy towards life can be summed up in two little words: carpe diem. Latin words, both of them. Seize the day. Grab it, and never let it go. If you're not daring, if you don't let everyone know what you think of them, if you don't stretch the limits of the life cut out for you, you might end up with an ok life. An average one. Nothing special. Just like you. Ok. Average. Not special. People who are beyond what you think possible for them didn't get that way by being passive. C.D. and not compact disc. Carpe Diem, seize the day, or else you'll never be the way you want to. Burn those words into your brain. Sear them on the surface of your gray thinking matter. You only have the rest of your life, so hurry up and get living! Always stay the way you were, only a little better than you were. Remember; C.D.

Friday, November 24, 2006

Carpe Diem

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

(I'm Getting) Closer (To What I Really Want To Say)

It didn't end that night
In fact it just started
You're stuck in my heart
And you'll have to kill me to make me give up
I'll turn off all of the lights
And try to tell you how I feel
But I can't put it the way I want with words
At least, none you've heard
I'd die for you
I'd throw myself off the edge of the world
Or off a cliff, or down the stairs
I can't control the way I feel for you
If I could I wouldn't be writing this
But you're the only thing I think about
And the only person
I'd turn off the lights
If you prefer the dark
I could extinguish the sun, because nothing's impossible for me to do
If I'm doing it for you
Why am I doing this to us?
I'm doing it even though I still know that it won't work
For the rest of them, and you
You just don't love me cause you don't know who I am

Just Another Poem (Cause That's What I'm Here For)

Have I said all I want to?
Have I done everything I could?
If so, why do I feel the same
Why am I still living under the same old name?
What went wrong, or did I not give it time to go right?
What makes you fear the night?
The time when your world goes dark
And you're all alone, I've hit the mark
You don't want to be alone
You want someone to be with you
In your mind, anyway
You want someone to be thinking of you
Every moment of every day
You need someone to need you
For it to wreck her life if you go away
And you'll never leave her
Cause your life wouldn't ever be the same
The sun would have dropped from the sky
And the moon would have given up and died
Poets can never find the right words to say
To complete their passions, for they were made that way
(Can't you please guess, guess what I'm trying to say?)

Sunday, November 19, 2006

My Heaven

When this world gets too hard to take
When you can't make it slide
Sometimes you have to make your own Heaven
You're having a bad time
The one you had last night
Reheated and ready to serve
But you can't take it again
So you take out your Heaven
This world gets hard to take
That's a fact of life and death
But your Heaven can always come
Come on in and replace the world
A mental medication
My little slice of Heaven
Oh, my very own Heaven
You're my own little slice of Heaven
That's you
My Heaven

Friday, November 17, 2006

Someone Else's Song

I don't know how to start this song/All the beginnings have been taken/I'm the latest lovestruck lad/To decide to write a love song/But all of its been said before/All these words have been sung/Before they were original/This comes just after the last original one

You can guess at the love I feel for you/You hear it every day on the radio/And on your cds at home/I want to tell you in a way to impress/But every line I want to sing/Fall Out Boy has the copyright on/I can't put it into my own words/'Cause they were stolen out of my mouth before I even thought of them/This is someone else's song

What it comes down to/I love you very much/And I can't say it in a new way/Or one to hit the charts/'Cause this is just a teenage heartache/Loverboy's heartbreak song/But the words were wrote wrong/It's all already been said/This is someone else's song

Thursday, November 16, 2006

For Every Boy...

For every boy with a whole heart
There's a girl with beauty and a gun
And for every lonely girl
There are five boys who promise to be the
Perfect one
Maybe you won't find out
Maybe I won't be found out
Love breaks hearts
Causes false starts
And can't you see what you mean to me
Can't you bear to see what's there
I hope you'll understand
When I kneel and take your hand
'Cause for every boy with a whole heart
There's a girl with beauty and a hammer
And for every girl with a broken heart
There are five boys who want to put back a part