Ever get the feeling you're stuck in the backseat of your own life?

no. it's. okay
i understand you didn't do it for the blood or the fame
but it was my life, and it was getting better than it had ever been before
and i've forgiven you as best i ever will
so don't try hitting me up with apologies
because the northern lights are shining
and our backseat night is almost ending
let's make this feel so right that it stops being wrong

and would it hurt so much to come clean?
lying to me is like lying to yourself
if you're doing that you're weaker than i ever thought
where's the girl i found inside
underneath the headaches and the crossed lines
the person who was surprised she'd even tried

let's make this happen just one last time
then we can forget about each other after we say goodbye

You think it's really just suspicion that tells you everything was said without you?

i can't believe you still believe in love
i know i stopped a long time ago
life is easier on your own
life is harder when you try to build your own home
life is just weird when i look at my reflection in the leaf-full pond
and realize it was you i was missing for the last 10 years

well, just forget about me changing my mind
i did that too much before i grew up
and set myself in stone (so no one could hurt me any more)
if you complain that i never let my guard down
it's just 'cause i've never liked getting stabbed in the back
by the person who was watching me while i slept
that just isn't how i want to live
not at all

[you make me feel so small
it's like you're taking away the best part of me
and putting it into your life
let me go let me go let me go
just give up, let me go
let me go let me go]

You think it's really just suspicion that tells you everything was said without you?

i can't believe you still believe in love
i know i stopped a long time ago
life is easier on your own
life is harder when you try to build your own home
life is just weird when i look at my reflection in the leaf-full pond
and realize it was you i was missing for the last 10 years

well, just forget about me changing my mind
i did that too much before i grew up
and set myself in stone (so no one could hurt me any more)
if you complain that i never let my guard down
it's just 'cause i've never liked getting stabbed in the back
by the person who was watching me while i slept
that just isn't how i want to live
not at all

[you make me feel so small
it's like you're taking away the best part of me
and putting it into your life
let me go let me go let me go
just give up, let me go
let me go let me go]

This is a song that i sing, i've just forgotten the tune and most of the words..

right now both our lives are pretty well messed up
so why don't you give me love
and some fascination or addiction
something to keep me moving for
i've been alone before
i've been alone most of the time
i'm never going back there
open up your door, i'm coming in

there has to be some way of getting away from myself
because i have irrational fears
like the fear of school spirit, and the fear of teenagers
and everything connected with the worst (and most formative)
years of my life
i just don't fit in and i guess i never did
because who else would spare a mosquito if it hadn't bitten you?
i guess these examples don't make any sense
but i still have these feeling that i'm so far away from my homeland
and all my life i've roamed
far from home (all alone)

[and even though it was a mistake
i loved you first
though it was not my place
the scars on my heart from youthful hurt
are not something time can erase
...but that's okay by me]

Tell me that you don't care, 'cause i don't

forgive me for saying this
but you guys were my worst friends
old buddies, almost enemies
if you want me to forgive you, you should show me why it'd be worth it
good-byes are something i make sure not to regret
(but here you come telling me i should ours...)

welcome to your summer of memories
and things you wish you could forget
remembrances better left deleted
friends that left you for better things and paper wings
who didn't know if you were happy or dead
do you remember them with your heart or just your head?