I'm the dirt inbetween your toes...

there's a million reasons for everything to turn out right
and a life and a world and a universe that simply doesn't care
but i still believe in a world just past my senses
a walk around a dark corner into what you think is there
and i still believe in love
and i still believe in you
i'll always believe in truth, even if i can't tell what's true

have you read the story God wrote about us?
i haven't either
but i heard it's a thriller
a drama and a romance
a suspense and a mystery
but the biggest one is how it's gonna end

and this might be a blow
but i can't promise anything
just give you my word that i will do the best i can
in this ever changing world
i can be the walking stick you support yourself with
be the dirt underneath your feet
and while i can't say i'll never break upon a stone
or collapse under your feet
i swear i'll do my best to hold fast
to hold fast for you

[And I will only lie down
by the fire with you, my love
I will only lie down with you]

Italicized life

i'm feeling like the victim of a train-hit-and-run
staring aimlessly in wonder into the rainbow-tinged sun
you want to fall in love? no
you want to fall in real love
true love
the kind that hurts the worst when it's taken away

i'm feeling like the victim of having her taken away
like the hero of a story that's unfortunately gone awry
like maybe the author wasn't quite awake
and stupidly wrote in a bad mistake

i'm feeling like a druggie when he realizes he's stoned
and behind the wheel
with no time to heal
and his love's life in his hands
and the backseat of the car

It's cold, but my blood is boiling

someday i'm going to burn this town down
right down to the ground
and hope it takes my old life with it too
because what i'm doing is just walking toward my breaking point
and every step takes me a little farther from you

i've tried and tried and tried and tried and failed to see the point
in what i'm doing here
every single heartbeat just shakes my life a little farther apart
every single breath just pushes at my sanity
and it's such a beautiful day, not quite the kind for a mental breakdown
it's cool and the air is crisp
the sky is bluer than i've ever seen it before
and i can't stand it, i'm closing the door
and drawing the blinds so i won't see it anymore

but you call me up
and plead with me
i guess i might be alright
if you'd come over and spend the night
and tell me i'm okay
and it'll all turn out good in the end
that's what i need to hear the most, you know